NOW I SEE IT

The fact that sometimes I'm amused..sometimes I'm sad .. sometimes I think I know what to tell you..what WILL I say to you.. and then there are times that I don't.. I can not recognize my feelings But never has there been the time that I'm glad... never. tell me that it's time for me to realize the meaning of your actions.. withdrawing your support .. tells me what it is that I have to do.. the message it factious.. I guess the whole picture is beginning to present it self to me...to my eyes. I did not believe that a tree... that has been in the ground for twenty three.. .. ..years.... would fall so easy with one jerk of a phrase.. one meaning to it's face..... I don't have time to plant another one that would last that long.... it may be time to culture the one that are there...bring them along.... I should compromise my position..I should just agree with whatever.... say yes..to be with you... with your incendiary... false...ideas... that have a small of the flailing that you do... two weeks ago you had said.....live in my place....live with me....i gather that at the time I was so fine...adjective was .. was in your mind. Such a short time ago I was denoting a quality.. in your mind it demonstrated the the utmost believes that you had... Now your actions demonstrate the insecurity..the insincerity.... the childishness of of that invitation. I can not even imagine that ever happening... ever.... the mendacity...the timing was not available to you... Now I hope that what you...and..I.. the adjustments that we have to do.... the enormity... of the believes that we have... to be so anxious.... that our daily activity do not have to suffer because of you.... because of me.... of me too..... for it was I..that uttered the words that were so offensive to you.. offensive........they happened to be untrue.. .. untrue. Te pido que me perdones,ise un error que no puedo diculpar....

IT'S JUST A DREAM

an image blended itself into my dream..... my dream was about a wide...a beautiful moving stream.. the image of angels.. of white angels re-living the turmoils... In the dark-black soil of the ones that fail..... the image appears in my mind when I'm awake as well... when i think of you.. .. the words that you have said to me in .. ..as arbitrarily.. as is my soul. erased the beauty .. that I saw.. made as dark as the water..became .. . after you waded in side of meaning...for us to see.. fanciful..is . quixotic..unreal what you say to me. the meaning of what your words can be.. what your words mean .. .. a realization..a chimerical.. is the meaning that I see in my dream.. I was a cocoon..a white cocoon.. I could not move..just going down the stream.. the meaning of what you said.. are as shrapnel embedded in my..thinking.. know that I would rather give up... what you mean to me... the love that I have for you... all the good things that you are.. have been. I will give up.. Rather then believe what you are saying.. the line that you tow.. the understandings that you have are not for me... not even for you... you just don't know.... YOU JUST DON'T KNOW........

estrangement

my feeling are shattered.. they are a shred of the product at the end of time....... my emotions are as a graft..alignment..... of the monitor ..of an injured heart.. as my thinking...may continue.. may be in the parallel of a divided line. in..and there......couthe be aligned. like the stars do in a billionth year.. as they do when we are so far apart, our thinking...like a cosmic vastness our beliefs....... that far apart..... to break a once united image.. the individual statements in my existence today you are.. damage..the fruit..demolish... disintegrate a breaking heart.. drop the leaves, the pedals like clouds .. .. falling down from the sky is a wondering line.. to meet you and forever be again as it was before.. degrade the parts..OR... uniting our thoughts..our beliefs..as they were before.. to make a sense of to togetherness...... before it's to late......before it's to .. and beyond. Beyond the reach of a love that can fall apart.. the energy, the intensity to get this far... when two signs of fire energize as one.... may never come back as it once was... once was one ....

a score of zero

love is not just a condition, not a feeling.........of.. odd being alive, of being there in the light......love is not just you beaming tormented with the torrents of a line of exquisiteness of what you have been through, or that you may in time be brought back to .... what you were, Love is not your every day occurrence that happens to .. just the ordinary , the small of mind ,...........love is there to destroy... to build... to honer... to bring .... to concur to engulf to .. out do .. to paint to erase to shoe.........to bring you back to what you may have to do ... to understand what is sphere in the first place........ look. In the pain, the hurt, the immensity of the whole being......... how....tell me HOW can you, can I. believe that LOVE is blind, love is .. what ever hits the enormous extremity of you . all of you. at once.. to blind you fore....that moment , that moment could be forever... to find you in what ever you may..have encounter in the feelings of that moment. .. that forever moment.............. it could for the time of would me, and you be in the most outrageous ... OUTRAGEOUS .. way be into you and into me at the same time ..... without you ever being in there at all. go......Love is a moment....love is a life time.....GO and find the one that hit you with that time in your life...see if you can really remember the time and how it felt at the time........ allow the healing.....allow the interlude of what has happened........sit.... sit down..and be the one that brings out the ones to you , and be accommodating to the ones that need.....that have to be reminded of what it was......of what it can, will............ don't just allow them to be...may still be .. infested with that feeling.. that fragment .. that draws you so close to .. and makes you forget the the rose......... the rose is that view in your mind of the beauty that you can't forget...it was so good...so fine......so good to feel in the heart...in the existence of that moment in time we had.........shared....inbraced together. on time long ago..............very long ago.....no more time to go........................and go.

egregious thought

today's feeling are an eraser of yesterday. .. Yesterday should not have happened, it should have been deleted from my time. no way out for me....had to have it confront. When you love some one for reason that are beautiful... like the one..as I can see how your are. bring on the way they are.....beautiful..wonderful disposition...displays of genuine..emotion...a range of pleasure to the .. senses...to the existence of the one in mind....my emotions are injured...are..hurting because of what you have to bring into my mind. because of the persistence........that you can bring... that you reword the one in the front of you... resistance.....of what you are saying...the .. speech...YOUR speech .. that you are doing now.. help me understand..correct what it is that I do not know... what IS it that I'm missing .. in what you are saying.. the er-ea in your sources..SAY......... in the way you may be presenting.......this !......I want to be able to bring back yesterday........ you may want to hear... to listen... and to be your own .... Your own author of what you want to say... of what you believe... absorb..unite your thinking before you make a display of your thoughts to others...the ones that have a different point of view then what it is that you do.......... the one that have different...philosophy of Ideas as foreign to you may have to be true..// asking to forgive....I could...when i can settle a score in my beliefs...when I can be really indifferent..intolerant to my own energetic.. and abundance..... of my thought... of what i really know to be the truth.......The Truth in my mind... you ... following others that are not to be .. genuine...the games they play is an effort... the display of distortions... are a display .. of torture in my mind.....I see you in the grip of the ones..the others.. that are really out of their intentions... for the ones that..have become as you are... I want to understand..... help me....HELP ME...to believe the way you are......other then what I see in the inferiority of you intentions to the ones..... loyal in your mind......

uncertainty

the mood is here..is there.......came into me like a Field of unwanted heat......unwanted air.......... dubiety...stresses..what I find myself in today loneliness in the flash..........Ianthe way I lay myself to rest .......today..long is the dream..the dreams of what it may.. beautiful..day..so much to do....here i lay in a state of disarray..... Skepticisim...suspicion...evidence of the mistrust.. of the frugality .. that we have today..... suspicion. stresses the lack of faith.......the reality of what is causes that is the way. I lay on my back...with the mind of .. wonderment for I feel the darkness coming my way..I try not to service the need I have to be..angry...be destructive in the way I know how to be with me... In the flash. in the veins I can see the colour coming to the surface of the injuries....and well mental injuries...feelings .. that we all some how enjoy..must .. enjoy the emotional hurt... how good it feels to hurt as is that way... An out let that has been provided by the complexity of nature...the wonder.... of a design...for us not to be able to even comprehand...ever..should I dare say Forever ?...........the indulgence of a life time here ...now..........maybe never.... there has to be a way to.....have.....to dislodge the impotance....the..movement of those that see it that way.... lets find a way....together.. a sovereign .. meaningful .. part of the day. do when we may extend it do others .. lets isolate a dimension..lets eclair..points of our feeling ..like frosted sweetness..so that we can change the mood .. to reach those who we are.Then...THEN we can do the things that need to be done.....today....

delightful

to feel a lovers passion.......overmastering .. feelings ardent.. affection................ love engulfs us together. an embrace of sudden energetic beauty.. all over my own being.systematic embrace.......... forever I will stay in you............in the fallen you .. warm excited...grace... feelings..zeal...excitement.persuit.. the warmth that is you when... WHEN will I ever know that.. even if it was only two....seems so much longer then two...days....again it is you.. if it's only today.. only one day.........remember my love.. remember after love........remember dias despues...........i will be there.....my love. euphoriaum.. I will feel again familiar is a way..........swayed..affected..of an inter wined desire to be................a coherent thoroughness... our bodies together..... introduce your love to me.. to my..to the observation of my mind..........the state I want to be...... elation. euphoric grace.. like a drug with you in my embrace.............. My love together again we will be today...... just like yesterday.......you leave as if you were forgiven...... forgiven of the passion in your heart .....into your forever being of mine .. ask me..... ask me....if we can blend this image of a love like no other.........then we can celebrate a true forgiven love.... For others to believe .. for others to understand where we are... some one will give your hand to me in the name of .......love.

lonely road

so long ... loneliness is long........maybe even forever.........or til you expire....along the descending.....line of a journey that one ends when you end............stirp...linege of ancestors ... passing by with you next to them in a line of life... you may encounter the fine, the wrong, the eagerness of the ones that use you, use that road to extract the lies,the truth,.........even the faith that one possess......is extracted beyond the reason of ones that pray.... .. they prey... believe in what you see, and what you hear may be..........those voices that constitute that internal dialog of forever...... in you voice....your inner voice....that no one hears....but you....... don't pray for the lonely.. don't pray for the difference in what you may find.... pray for the ones that have to be in line...................the line that the politician has .. and will .. define...............the one with all the controls, all the ordering in to..day. the day would have been just fine............ engage this today....engage what is there,,, in.time you finally fined the real arguments that do us what we were in the last......time .. of the ordinary...windows of your mind .. that ones that forever will... will see the openings that are there.. in so many years of the journey that we find .. SO long .. so long in this very troublesome .. time.......at random....canvassing opinions of this....the poll of our being here .. in... being with display.. of the ignorance of our time............this very unusual........and ugly demonstrations of the ones that hearing the lies, the distortions, the projections of the leaders of those that .. correcting this lonely road will some day be in the line... the line of fire with my scope on their mind.........find me here...find me hear...........in today .. the lonely road of my line....

dusty lane

white ford SUV coming fifty per hr attached to a cell phone.......... fifty in a 15 mile Zone...........she lives half a mile away southeast of my ten............believe my dismay.........dust allover my house, my car, my pump..........everywhere... just washed my car.......thought i would go somewhere.................wash it again. I know this a dumb thing to blog on....I live in a rural erea...on a dirt road, there is a Rd. called Dusty lane close by,and this lady drives by every ten minutes at 50 miles per hour, she seems oblivious of her surroundings, I use to wave at her, but her cell phone always entered-feared with my salutation, so I just stopped waving, and now I'm starting to make the sign of slow-down I'm hoping that some day she will notice and even maybe know what that may mean I have figured out that she may-be a stay at home type, with a child, and she drives the child to the corner to the school bus, and picks the child up , and during the rest of the time she just drives like hell on Dusty lane... I keep wondering what her man may say to her about the dust on the car, who changes the oil, the filters, the window-washer, and so on, I drive very care-full on Dusty lane so to avoid as much of the dust as I can, and yet I have to do all those changes on my car, often. I also know that the neighbors to the south of me have a teen-ager named DUSTY, and I keep thinking that they may have named him after Dusty Lane, if I ever talk to him I may ask him, but then I think what if he is insulted , what will I say then. You see folks I can say things without my usual style of rhythmic sayings... thanks for your ear.........

deceptive act

• email....
  invitation secret shopper....
  curiosity fraudulent parring on greed..

on participation..
...........of the ones that need........
incentive
inducement...
checks within four hours ...
............my dog chasing UPS...
............through the bed of flowers.
Confusion, how can that be
no one will ever send checks so quick to me......
Instructions of...the greed within the hour follows........
take it to the bank get your money quick,
............take your cut right there....
............send money to Manila.............
should be within the hour.
I don't know what to do........
the rules of fair play the rules of honesty.
can they apply to crooks.....

• think...
  
  Think where you have been...
  the years of the past..
  ones that you have met..
  remember the blade inches from your face...........
  when they took your ride away.
  Meeting with the press,
  meeting with the law.........
  providing information..
  data of sequences to have in line for you act in your capacity...........
  have them on file...
• have them printed out...
          engage the crooks audacity......
  ........Imagine a fine,
  quite morning cent of coffee....
  confrontation of statistical theory........
  with this offer to act now....
  the money is on it's way.
  ............make two hundred ...
  promotions of deception...
  can your day... Some one tried to scam me..
  send me a cashiers check for $3,200.00 and then they send instructions for me to go deposit it in my bank, keep $200.00 and wire the rest to some one in Manila PI. Do we have those kind of scams else where ? or is it just here ?

dias despues

In time we will know.....we will find that over-all feeling... intimate..feelings of... friendly course we have done the ones to be into you....into ..end........ wondering...response... firm...restrained..... energy..chemical activity in my veins.....missing. relationship that is quantitative between you and.. the process..lease that will never be.............between you..u.. us... What I'm seeing..now....stoic..is it... saddens..... meaningful, association..between you...me pattern of interaction.......gone.. tears..tears will flow.under what we said we would be...remember..after love..remember...my love....xxxxxxx...just remember... fraces De amour en UN carino.......vello...veyo..era asi..ayer.. my amor.... te espero...... Te espero.. que vuelvas .... que huelvas.... a mis brasos Ha abraso.. clearly marked identity... I see ... is not their..not .. us...not there... intoxicated... addicted...toxicity of love....it was. Emotion..could it end like this... how can it be...how can it possible .. dare...dare without proof.. give false appearance...pretend... spend the night....in a somber embrace..of defiance to my feelings..my aches...of the heart..without sleep..without a way out of the reliance of you...questions..in my mind ...the endangered post.diversion of what was...and no longer is....lying..here forever..it seems...foreveritseems....