uncertainty

the mood is here..is there.......came into me like a Field of unwanted heat......unwanted air.......... dubiety...stresses..what I find myself in today loneliness in the flash..........Ianthe way I lay myself to rest .......today..long is the dream..the dreams of what it may.. beautiful..day..so much to do....here i lay in a state of disarray..... Skepticisim...suspicion...evidence of the mistrust.. of the frugality .. that we have today..... suspicion. stresses the lack of faith.......the reality of what is causes that is the way. I lay on my back...with the mind of .. wonderment for I feel the darkness coming my way..I try not to service the need I have to be..angry...be destructive in the way I know how to be with me... In the flash. in the veins I can see the colour coming to the surface of the injuries....and well mental injuries...feelings .. that we all some how enjoy..must .. enjoy the emotional hurt... how good it feels to hurt as is that way... An out let that has been provided by the complexity of nature...the wonder.... of a design...for us not to be able to even comprehand...ever..should I dare say Forever ?...........the indulgence of a life time here ...now..........maybe never.... there has to be a way to.....have.....to dislodge the impotance....the..movement of those that see it that way.... lets find a way....together.. a sovereign .. meaningful .. part of the day. do when we may extend it do others .. lets isolate a dimension..lets eclair..points of our feeling ..like frosted sweetness..so that we can change the mood .. to reach those who we are.Then...THEN we can do the things that need to be done.....today....